Thursday, March 10, 2011

Blogging.. what happened?

Question: So when did blogging turn from being a joy to a chore?  
Answer: Perhaps when I realized that I wasn't doing it for myself.

Journaling is intimate, focused inwards to my heart.  It allows me to be reflective and aware.  A blog is similar, but I found that I held back on some truths.  Many of those truths unveil a part of me that I am not used to sharing with the general public.

In the store, I'd like to think that I am being my TRUE SELF at all times.  But I know that I don't serve my highest good at all times.  I hold back.  I bite my tongue.  I shut up (even though it doesn't seem that way, huh Anna!!).  People hurt my feelings and I allow it.  People energetically help themselves without returning the love, and I allow it.   People bring their baggage and attempt to leave it.  And I allow it.

At what point do I say, NO THANKS!  I love you.  Please love me.

So, with that reflection, I say, goodbye blogging for entertainment.  Unless I want to be entertained.  Goodbye to blogging for information sharing.. Unless I want to share.  Goodbye to blogging, without being aware of my soul's purpose.  

THEN, when I do write something... it will be for my good, my evolution and my awareness.   And if I change my mind, then HELLO to balance, hello to acceptance, hello to equanimity.

don't you just love a win-win?

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Here's a quote to inspire me:

Don't worry about what the world needs.  Ask what makes you come ALIVE and do that.  Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.
- howard thurman

here's a pic of jason's favorite bracelet.  knotted imperial topaz with all different religious symbols.  
he's added a couple more since this shoot...
i so admire my husband. he has such an open mind and acceptance about belief systems and his interest in the divine and his openness about each individual's personal journey with their god or gods... i'm fascinated by that!  mahalo, mahalo, mahalo ke akua!  i am grateful for the people that are in my life.  lessons abound!